November 2009
7 posts
i seemed not to be afraid of anything anymore, want my life normal,whatever!!
got wet in school with shelter, like what is the shelter for so ya but i got a make up test and got 20.5/25 quite happy with it except for stupid mistake so ya=D
i am getting scared due to the fact that commskill test is on mon and sihwee has yet to send me the specifications meaning i do not have any research with me, not knowing what i am suppose to do
Words or Weapons?
It may have been an innocent comment, but for some reason you just can’t stop thinking about it. Better give it a shot, though — if you don’t want this to end.
this came from my daily horoscope, whatever it is i choose the second way of giving it a shot just cause i don’t want it to end.
all these horoscopes are giving me kind of creeps cause it can be quite true at times...
had mc and its for 2 days so no school for me tml and it meant no commskill for this week… sian it should happen on the week with 3 lesson commskill ma… nevermind but its better cause i think half the class skipped commskill today and i had valid reason for it=D also, i realised that i am worried i will miss out on school for not going to school for 2 days, when did i become a school...
gillian agrees partially with sihwee’s neglects but gillian recently come to realise that she has been neglecting sihwee quite alot too… and it is retarded of sihwee to scold vulgarities because hers sound more like a joke to me=D
i have changed and i did not realise it till recently, sihwee says i have opened up, should be something good i suppose, i want to keep the change if it is good but if not please let it go, and i realised that i dun like hearing vulgarities recently except from sihwee’s mouth cause hers is like retarded but i still dun like it now i dunno why feel like giving people who says vulgarities...
studying alone works
never tried studying alone like for a long time in my life after i stopped studying at home, in fact i dun think i ever studied at home like after p5?quite long uh and especially after sec 4 i never did it and never could do it,due to some personal reasons so i had always studied at mac, tmart favourite place with friends, love that place cause i always see people i know there but i dun think i...
October 2009
9 posts
“all i need is a hug from you, assuring me that all is fine”
what friends are for
have so much to say that is not that private or like something i would want to write in the diary cause it is long, not going to write in the private blog cause idk why so i am writing here…
“friends” do they still consider themselves as my friends? if they do they should be ashamed of themselves or rather should i say i dun think so… out of those four and a half years...
while waiting for darling today i went to MPH and read books on horoscopes, which is like sort of quite true really it says that within the last 10 years i have lost and gained many friends but lost them in the end, my pri school friends are in little contact now and talking about the secondary school story its been ups and downs…
started from the group consisting of like yanshan,...
ADVENTURE(GETTING TO KNOW SINGAPORE BETTER)
this is a better way of saying i got lost?
not really but to start, i went to school after like changing buses cause the buses was all packed, den after that did not listen to lecture was laughing all the way through, thinking of it i felt quite retarded cause i was laughing at practically everything…den went bowling with them blahblah
suggested going to take singapore flyer or something...
WHAT I ATE TODAY
as suggested i decided to post on what i ate today, it was so superly amazing which you can never imagine, and i realized it after i stopped eating=D
although shared some with darling but had to admit that the larger portion was eaten by me…
-scallop rice x2
-fan choy x1
-mooncake x0.5
-popiah x3 (shared)
-tie ban mian x1(shared)
-tea eggs x2
-sugar loaf x1(shared)
-drinks...
have not been blogging here cause blogging somewhere else where people dun know and i dun intend to tell… dunno why weird la but tata bye
life isn’t as fun as wonderful as it seems
been really entertaining this few days cause i got lost every other day and its no surprise, quite used to it
lots of things happen and i am too lazy to type so ya its been quite good i suppose since i don’t get any sucidal thoughts or anything much negative
September 2009
15 posts
escaping from reality, want to change all this but with me alone i know it is impossible i need your help, your thinking your mindset…
when will it ever change
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GOT LOTS OF PLANS!!!
fri-make sushi den go picnic
sat-make brownies den go diao deng long…
SIHWEE,AMANDA okay???
today was okay but it is super hot and humid which sort of caused my whitening cream(TO NOT WORK) cause the sun is scorching… amanda came and we did some baking and yes i brought her to an adventure before baking… almost getting her to tanah merah HAHAHAA…. but i still brought her back to my house safely without having to take bus or cab or transport=)
we baked cupcakes not bad...
stayed home today and missed my darling alot… i wonder why
doesn’t matter getting quite used to not going to school this days sort of happy with it and ya…
rotting at home the whole day… feel so emo but still okay just very siannn
haha
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KHAIRUL AND YUHAN!!
did not get to wish them with smses or anything cause i could not find their number… so just like that lo… and i was so tired the whole day woke up went to church came back and sleep… but cause i bing ren so got special privellege…and suppose to get a job like 200 dollar 1 day but mummy did not allow so byebye to the job…. i...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA!!!! for the third time=DDD
mood has been good so tata
byeee
i dun find much privacy with my mama, sister and cousin on facebook… especially when i realise my sis is trying real hard everyday to find my blog…
went to work, things went on just like normal…
shall i lead my life normally just a normal girl or shall i make it really wonderful, or should i say special just different from a normal girl?
thinking of all this makes my head ache… anyway went to work and people there said they felt that i am a happy girl so i shall be one i suppose since being happy would be better than being...
been busy working and earning money… shall save up really…byebye
finefinefine… things are like fine now like how i want it to be… should be?
really hope i am not an adventure like what everyone says… GILLIAN IS AN ADVENTURE… GO OUT WITH HER LIKE ROLLERCOASTER…
i want to have things plain but not rollercoaster.. cause this has great impact on me you know… blahblah working as a telemarketer quite interesting or so….
sorry
nothing much to say here cause it is not totally private but i still feel like posting…
being a good girl stayed at home until 4 plus den went out to find my darling, msged mama on the way there to inform her that i am going out, she has no choice as i am already out…
den we watch i love you beth cooper, was a little late so missed the front part… den we went for supper? blahblah de service not say not good but dunno what happen… they gave us the wrong bill lucky i...
went out the whole day with darling was happy, but times with him passed quickly, cannot wait for his next off day… but was not happy when mama started nagging when i come home… makes me wonder why i came home so early… anyway i am going to get a scolding so whats the big deal of getting both at the same time? rather den like avoiding one den get another scoldign, whatever la,...
August 2009
43 posts
do you know what day is yesterday? don’t think anyone can remember so forget it…
went back to school today saw many old friends=D happy but did not see much teachers so was sian… den came home going to bathe and sleep soon
i just took a two and half hour journey from orchard back home, i know thats just so me so no surprises… spent quite an amount today but i shall control after this, got back some claims from my daddy so haha, thinking of what i shall do next cause i dunno what my mood is in now=D
i am going to be dead in one and half hour time when the examiner says start cause i can predict da silva’s BIG EYES staring and me den i will finish the paper in half hour and run out of the exam hall yeahhhh sports hall and i am like sitting at seat 7 can you imagine that 200 or 2000 people there and i am number 7… nevermind i shall study a little now
“in order to get well you must not be a stubborn patient”
– me!me!me!
i am getting so superly fat because of this exams… cause i cannot stand to study at home so i go mac, what do you do there, order a meal and start studying and after 2-4 hours you will buy another drink and continue studying and walk out buy some titbits and worse thing is, my mama cooks everyday which meant that other then eating breakfast at home( trying to not to eat at mac, but not...
wo jia sihwee is now at my house since around 2 hours ago???
time check: 8.30
this means she is a seriously hopeless ah siao munching on honey stars… and she is so crazy to play spot the diff late at night walking zombie la… nevermind ignore her i am going to school in around 5 mins haven pack bag yet
i studied not knowing why i did that but i still did that, but not very happy now cause my darling is sick
he is sick la!!! how lehh and this idiot dun want to eat panadol, what else can he do? see doctor he also dun want stubborn freak den now he sleep what if he gets high fever at night lehh? okay la at least got sleep den i shall sleep early too
goodnight
and sihwee is another idiot who is...
have not been blogging recently, tumblr is dead and blogger is even worse…
exams coming(going soon) so i have been studying alot like never before except o level that time…
many things happen, funny fun,unhappiness sad, angry( not really) so thats it interpret it yourself
okay i just finished econs, it was like i dunno how to do and i wrote alot rubbish… really rubbish told mingteck what i drew and he was laughing all the way… and he hit me with his phone… how could he causing me to give the teacher who told me to keep quiet a cramped face den he ignored me… and because of this i think i had concussion and went right into a boy’s...
1 more min to 11.11 i shall try making a wish to see whether is works… i am going to try anything and everything
tml is exam, micro econs which i scored D+ for meaning if i fail i will have to take sup… but what am i doing now?
thinking of what i could do to make it work for us… with my stomach i dunno what is that feeling hungry or what? i dunno maybe hungry cause i did not eat after reaching home like i normally did
i really dun feel good knowing that things may come to an end if other things...
haha.. study study study
this is just so like the period before o levels but i am so in the study mood… i think i shall isolate myself just like how i once did last time cause i just cannot stop myself from talking when i see someone right in front of me…
called sihwee many times today with reasons of course telling her to study which did not happen but we did something fun today...
i am going to sleep in a minute cause i am finally in the mood to go to sleep, meaningg i feel tired, but i just hope i am now with my darling cause i really feel like i need him so much now…
goodnight and byebye last post before i sleep
i love you darling
“i would never want you to leave me because my heart will leave with you, leaving...”
– the great me
“it always hurts when a quarrel occurs”
– the great me
i am now blogging not due to me saying i am going to blog but that i tried to get to sleep but i couldn’t is this PMS?
i think so cause i have some feeling that this thing is going to come said it many times but never happen i don’t want to care if anyone wants to trust me anymore, i said that i will wait cause the only trust i need is from you really
okay i have nothing to say la
i...
i just lied to my darling that i am going to sleep he might get angry but i just not in the mood… sorry
i know nothing can make you change including me for now?whatever it is i cannot get to sleep and not going to get to sleep so see me blogging every hour if you like
yesterday was quite fun overall, deducting those not so happy moments that comes and go.so don’t bother to talk about it
today i stayed at home for like all day which is up till now, was being aroused from my good sleep which i had intended to like sleep till 1 but was shortened to 10.30am? by my sister who apparently talked to celestier with loudspeaker, not knowing she did not close the...